The new norm has been bittersweet for me from the start, but it’s come with many blessings in disguise. For one, I was able to take a break from long commutes to work, and work from home again. I was over and done with commuting in packed subway stations. I was relieved, and ecstatic about the government enforced “social distancing” rule applied to the GTA transit system. It was the perfect rule to enforce, for many reasons. For one, some subway stations are over crowded to a point where it’s not safe, when walking through. Secondly, when buses are over crowded, drivers continue taking more people in, or they drive right past you. You may be waiting for a bus for thirty minutes, and it passes you by. Without before warning, you may be late for work or an appointment. On top it, your fare may expire and you’ll have to pay again, so annoying!
The first time I took the TTC after almost a year, and hopped on a bus, I felt as though I was in a dream. The yellow social distance signs all over the seats…. Folks are literally NOT ALLOWED to sit directly beside you??!!Wow! You mean, I don’t have to deal with a stranger falling asleep on my shoulder? Sounds good to me! I don’t have to anticipate, how to politely ask a stranger, for some “space” to squeeze by them from the window seat. My personal space feels protected, the way that it should in public. I feel much more relaxed and enjoy the ride.The seat beside me will be free for my bags, and I have all the space that I need. Traveling on the TTC has been a pleasure, since these rules have been enforced. It’s one change for our new norm that I did not need to adapt to. I’m definitelyused to it!
Hey good day:) I hope your day is going good so far. I intended on posting this months ago, forgive me, as the opening of this blog was written months ago. I wrote it at the end of winter, as winter was ending going into spring.
The “mandatory” power outage last month, lasted for two hours, and I was thankful that I was given a heads up. I hoped it would not be any longer than two hours, and I hoped that it wouldn’t become super chilly down here. It’s a little chilly down here already. It helped that I was prepared for it, but I was still inconvenienced because my cell phone died! Usually this wouldn’t be a big deal, but because it wasn’t properly charged, my alarm for work didn’t go off! I was already showered and ready for work, but fell asleep for a bit, wrapped in a blanket. I was waiting for the power outage to be over! I was super annoyed that I woke up late! I’m always on time for shift, I’ve never been late! My manger texted me, asking if I was okay, she even texted that she was worried about me, and that I’m NEVER late! This is the first time I missed my alarm, and my manager was very understanding. It wasn’t a big deal, yet I was still bothered. Having no electricity really sucks, and we take it for granted.
So, we had yet another “mandatory” power outage, and had it lasted for twice as long, it may have interrupted work. That would not be good! I don’t think anybody in Toronto would be prepared for that. We’ve been blessed that they usually don’t last for a full day. We haven’t been left in the dark. We recently started getting severe weather, but nowhere near what has happened in Texas. Some folks say it’s “unnatural” weather, and I agree. I was watching folks down there, posting videos showing their firsthand account of the affects of the power grid going down. The flooding videos sparked anxiety in me, but I forced myself to watch them. The worst one, was a cell phone video taken by a mother with children. She was forced to sleep in her car with her children for warmth. There was no telling when she would be able to enter her home again. I could feel the chill in my bones, the discomfort, as though I was in her shoes. I reminded myself that it could be worse up here in Canada.
Fast forward to May: The double-down restrictions have just been announced, meaning many products are off limits, again. I was shocked to see that CANDLES, and LIGHTERS were included in this list. So candles are not considered essential???? Aren’t they the main go to when there is a BLACK OUT???? What the hell is going on here???? My friend and I had a discussion about this, as I exited the Dollarama in the evening. She couldn’t believe what I was telling her. Yup, candles are forbidden. The price of candles can be quite expensive, regardless of your budget. Fortunately, stores like Dollarama offer an amazing assortment of all types of quality candles, at low prices. I never thought that I would live to see the day that candles were considered “illegal” to purchase. I never thought I would see yellow tape sectioning off DO NOT ENTER ZONES on items like candles and candle holders.
So, we’re near the end of May, candles and lighters that were outlawed for almost a month, are FINALLY legal to purchase! During the law enforced restrictions, folks in the GTA questioned and protested against this ridiculous rule placed upon these essential items! Up to a week ago, the ban was lifted, but only on these items. I accidentally picked up a candle holder that was not covered with yellow emergency tape, and an emergency signal went off at the self check out! A cashier had to come and help me, to authorize me so I could continue checking out my stuff. I apologized to her, as she explained that the item was on the, “DO NOT BUY LIST”. I proceeded to tell her that it was an accident, and the item and section of shelf, was completely open, and NOT covered by yellow tape. I added that I try to avoid putting them in an awkward position! We both chuckled. I’ve been in every Customer Service reps position before, but this new world of outside rules, is on another level! I am sure to commend them and Thank them for their service on every shopping trip.
Please be sure to continue to stock up and candles, lighters, matches, portable lamps etc. There’s no telling if or when the yellow tape will go back up…I’m not kidding!
They say a dark winter is coming, and we should prepare for the worst! These words echo all over mainstream media and out of politician’s mouths. If you live in a climate that receives the gift of winter, you probably aren’t keen on it coming early. There are so many fears and changes we all are trying to prepare for. Way too many. We already had our first major snow, but none after that. They say it’s going to be a coldand harsh winter, in addition to a “dark winter”. I can’t count how many times I’ve heard that, and the first time I heard it, it threw me off. I thought it was very negative and unnecessary to say. Folks get depressed as winter hits as it is, Why do they keep repeating this??? Oh, I know why, more conditioning for the mind, on a negative tip.
On one of my days off, I woke up and I didn’t want to get out of bed. The air felt chiller than usual. I had some errands to run, and usually I like to get my day started early, but I just couldn’t budge. I was warm under the covers, and, I didn’t want to get up from under the warm covers. I was very reluctant to go outside, even though I really wanted to get some fresh air. I caught up on my sleep and allowed myself to sleep in past noon. I felt guilty, because I like to make the most in the day, no matter the weather. This winter, I feel as though I don’t want to deal with it, I intend on avoiding it at all costs. The shutdown and “dark winter” mantra, ain’t making it any better. Everytime I hit the road and walk past a newly closed business, with boarded up graffiti cover, I feel a hit of the winter blues. I had to stop and take this photo, although my fingers were cold. This place is changing slowly yet drastically, day to day. It feels like a lucid dream.
I will not allow the media to influence my mood, or alter my state of mind, regardless of how much they say life supposedly“sucks”. I count my blessings times ten, and I will not have a dark winter, no matter what they say.
A few weeks back…There was a dude sitting by himself drinking a beer, on a chilly, windy autumn night. He looked as out of place, as the tables that were set up in the road. It just doesn’t make sense, beyond the new rules, public drinking is against the law. That’s probably why it looks so odd to me, to see a person drinking a beer in the road. This is a sight that a year ago would be unheard of. Patrons are no more “social distanced” than they would be, if they were sitting inside the little bar. It just doesn’t make sense.
The waitstaff are forced to walk outside, in weather that’s a few degrees above zero, wiggling around the patrons AND pedestrians. It just doesn’t make sense. The chefs are wearing a mask for the majority of their shift, while slaving over an open fire. I can’t help but feel for them, I have worked in a tiny restaurant that was hot as hell before. I couldn’t imagine not being able to properly breathe through my mouth AND nose for 8 hours in the heat. It just doesn’t make sense.
So, the approved inside dining with extra restrictions, went back into affect, the day before yesterday, I think…I’m not quite sure, because overnight the rules have changed AGAIN. Apparently, we’re now in the new stage of “Red rules/restrictions”. Winter has not officially hit us, and we are already being fed some very bad news. The threat of another full lock down looms over us, and this time it’s even more confusing and weird. I understand that there is a lot of censorship being enforced all over the world wide web, so I am choosing to choose my words wisely.
I value this area for sentimental reasons, it’s a part of my childhood that nothing, and nobody can sully. The local pizza shop has not been open since the start of the shutdown and it’s very sad. I’m not a big pizza eater, but I liked their pizza, and amazing service with a personal touch. You could call them even 15 minutes to closing, and the owner would still take your order. It saddens me that the folks who make this neighborhood special, have to close down for good. Everything that they built, pretty much over, and in a matter of months.
The confusion and contradictory rules are the worst part. Even the mainstream news titles their stories, emphasizing this.
It all doesn’t make sense, but yet and still I follow the rules, follow protocol, and do my best to stay as healthy as possible. I have more to say, but I’ll save it for another post.
The temperatures have shot up out of the blue, a pleasant surprise, but feels very unnatural. It seems a little off to me.
I had to take a double look and refresh my browser when I saw the weekly forecast. I was ready for the temperature to drop below zero within the next few weeks. Then again, I’ve learn to expect the unexpected in these strange times. The weather has BEEN tampered with, and this ain’t no conspiracy. If you grew up in Canada, and are over twenty, you would’ve definitely noticed the drastic change in the seasons. Mother earth is not well, and we all know why.
I tried to catch some of that warmth and sunlight, but by the time I reached outside 4:30ish, it was already dark. Did the sun go down a little earlier than usual? The streets were very active, many people dining out, trying to enjoy the warm fall evening. The sound of latin jazz bumping out of the local open-front, very well-lit restaurant. It looked and felt like a regular warm summer night! Folks sitting outside, many without masks. Talking, laughing, looking very happy, very “pre-covid19”. The vibe was nice, I almost forgot about the government restrictions. I almost daydreamed my way into a new reality…The old norm.
On my brisk walk home after completing my errands, I was very relaxed, and content. As I calmly walked home enyoying the warmth and chill vibes, I was completely caught off guard. I winced in the dark, thinking maybe my eyes were deceiving me. I saw a tall dark figure in the road, beside the curb, moving in my direction. As I moved closer, I realized it was a horse! An RCMP officer on a horse, Ooooh Okay! I’ve seen these officers many a time, just not in this side of the city, especially after dark. It was very out-of-place, and I thought something must be wrong. They usually only come out to help monitor crowds, large gatherings, like the “Caribana Festival”. My discernment told me perhaps they are preparing for something, for it was the day of USA elections….I dunno, it was just weird. So of course I quickly and awkwardly positioned my phone, and snapped a pic.
Lately I’ve been doing well, but some things in the outside world just seem a little off…
For now, that’s all I have to say. Have a productive day!
Last night at the grocery store the shelves were well-stocked with Halloween candy, yet all bleach products were sold out. Then it hit me, Oh yeah! It’s the second wave!! We’re officially in the second wave phase. Folks are doubly stocking up on basic essentials, and I don’t blame them! The specific product that I was looking for was not in stock, and nothing similar was either. I felt slightly frustrated, seeing rows and rows of aisles filled with candy, but no product similar to what I needed. The extra large red boxes, the candy bar multi-packs, those boxes I used to love seeing, really annoyed me! The second wave of shopping confusion begins and I have been slowly stocking up throughout the months. Unfortunately, there’s no way to fully prepare. There are new updates on where the rules and restrictions are headed everyday.
That same aura of confusion I felt in March, has been re-released in the air. Price gouging and ridiculous mark ups in stores, A regular bottle of 70 percent rubbing alcohol for $7.99. My bottle from early March, is just about to run out. It’s one of the only products I didn’t stock up on over the months. It’s no big deal though. I am mentally prepared for the cold season chaos. The mainstream news is definitely dropping hints to prepare, for the next phase of rules and restrictions. I saw that coming.
I recently watched an anti-mask protest on YouTube in downtown Toronto that I knew nothing about. Folks of a wide age range, racial backgrounds, and social classes, from around the city stood together. It blew me away to see a united front on this topic from such a diverse group. We are very, very diverse here in Toronto, but this protest was different. I heard folks describe their common fears of what’s to come, RE government control, and the folks who stood on the other side of the street were not pleased. They feel as though this behavior is incredibly dangerous and irresponsible. I understand both sides standing their ground.
In the meantime, I continue to support my local shops and I appreciate all of their efforts. They have been brave and strong while dealing with their patrons, risking their health in small spaces. They have changed their hours a few times, abiding by government rules. They have been consistent with their quality and friendly service, maintaining honest communication with their customers. The photo I included is off some produce that I purchased the other day from my favourite local fruit market. The cost was only $6.00 in total! That is amazing for the amount and quality. It is just as good as the local franchise grocery stores, maybe even better.
Please keep in mind that many local retail shops, fruit markets, convenience stores, bodega’s have managed to maintain and serve us. They have managed to keep those products coming from across the border and over seas. Many of these stores are in danger of closing for good, because of major retail chains making private deals, and being granted special privileges. For example, “regular” business hours are okay for them, but not for the so-called “little guys”. I will definitely dive deeper into this topic in another blog.
I must admit that I have not been sleeping properly on schedule the way that I should be. I feel off balance, and that’s my fault. Anticipating what’s to come has been getting to me. I’ve allowed it to affect my sleep, so I’ll be settling in earlier tonight and going to sleep. Have a good night:)
Back in March “they” said that children were low risk when it came to the virus. Out in public places, you would rarely see children, especially little ones under five, wearing a mask. I was relieved to see the children free to breathe fresh air. I was relieved to see children riding their bikes, skateboarding, rollerblading and running around free. I was happy that the children were able to enjoy the summer weather, without the added stress of a mask.
I’m up again, when I should be sleeping, my sleeping patterns have been off beat lately. My mind is not at peace, although I’m doing alright. So I write, watch videos, or scroll through the news articles suggested by my notifications. I just saw an article come up about public schools in Ottawa already having “dozens” of Covid cases. It stated that parents are disappointed. I think dsince heisappointed is an understatement. On top of this, there is much confusion and I wonder, how much can a child can learn in this case? It’s hard enough adjusting to school in the fall season, but now their saying schools may potentially be closed again. I just watched another mainstream news clip that stated at the end, “The worst is yet to come”…..OKAY.
A popular independent journalist youtuber shared her son’s experience about school. She said that she had to ask him, since he was not saying anything about school. She shared that she could feel his stress, and he was trying to cope without complaining. It sounded like a horror movie, to hear a pre-teens account of the first day back to school. Water fountains completely TURNED OFF, water bottles not allowed in classrooms, not being allowed to “turn around” after walking in one direction, getting scolded for simply abruptly switching directions??? It sounds absolutely absurd, it sounds insane! If we adults do not follow the basic rules and regulations, then why the hell do we expect children to follow? I know, I know, We don’t make the rules, but there are some rules that are very unrealistic and potentially damaging to these children.
The rules are not the same across all school boards in North America. I’ve been trying to keep up with real parents, and some news outlets, and independent journalists to stay in the know. There is so much conflicting information, including from the government. As I’ve said before, there are TOO many mixed messages, WAY too many.
Many people have said, that there will always be times like these, and children survived these times in the past. Of course that is true. I respect and admire the elderly coping well, walking around masked up and following the new rules to a T.
I understand that we don’t make the rules, but collectively if we ask questions, there’s nothing to lose. Many folks of all walks of life, ethnic backgrounds, social classes and ages are calling this a “plandemic”. Something just ain’t adding up, and yes, I know the virus is REAL.
It’s one of those Sundays where I vow to start the day as early as possible, vow to get a proper eight hours sleep, but for some reason the day doesn’t pan out that way.
I heard the rain tapping on the metal outside, sounding like a rhythm. I love the sound of rain, but this morning it doesn’t sound the same, it sounds like an interruption. It sounds as though a storms a brewing, and now the power is out. This is the second time this has happened this week, and I know I didn’t blow a fuse. Thankfully I have my flashlight by my side, and another trusty Led light gadget that I purchased yesterday from the dollarstore. I knew it’d come in handy soon, it’s that time of year. Sporadic rain, and thunderstorms. Cool, damp, crisp air.
I burn a large scented candle and lay back down in a fetal position on the comfy couch. I try to make myself comfortable, as I pull my favourite tan throw over me. I remember our friend that has passed, and it’s only been a few days. I think of how positive his energy was, what a bright light he was, and how young he was. I think of how his parents must feel, his family at home, who expected him to come home. I think about how dreary this day feels, and I planned on doing more with it. The weather outside depicts exactly how I am feeling, it could let up at any time, it will definitely change. I am frustrated that I’m going to have to change the plan I thought would work today.
It’s too dark to try and do too much, my sources of light are minimal, but good enough to get me through until the power comes back. My laptop battery is dying slowly, as is my cell phone, and my media pad. I lay patiently trying not to think negative or sad thoughts. I guess I’ll wait till everything is back up and running.
There’s only so much that I can do in the dark. I think, at least I am alive to face this day, it could be worse. The power came back on as I positioned my flashlight, The rain stopped as well. I felt a sense of relief.
It’s time to get on with my Sunday. The day ended up going okay.
Summer is officially over and that kiss of autumn crispness is in the air. So the heat is finally on, and I almost forgot to open the vents, I was walking around feeling chilly, and forgot that I had that option. Summer disappeared over night as quick as showed up over night. The summer sun was blasting upon us yesterday, but I could feel autumn coming. My absolute favourite season, and time of year. Too warm for a light weight coat, but not warm enough to go on the road without one. So just to be safe, I carry one in my carry bag.
On the streets, folks hold on to what’s left of summer, still wearing shorts and sandals, but we all know summer is over. After three solid months of it, it’s time to say goodbye. We do this every year, but the sorrow that 2020 has bestowed upon us, has us holding on for dear life.
Yesterday my bestie cousin messaged me about another young man, a friend of ours who’s life has ended due to a traffic accident. He was one of those people who had a very bright light inside, that you could see in his eyes. He was excited about life and was always doing something interesting with his time. His energy always reminded me of a celebrity, I always considered him a celebrity in his own right. He left a positive impression on everyone he met, and nobody had a bad word to say about him. He was riding his motorcycle ironically, when he got into the accident, which he loved to do.
My cousin chose not to share the news with me until a few days after she found out. She was worried that it may be too hard for me to handle, she apologized for having to give me, “more bad news”.
It’s that time of year though, after momma’s passing anniversary, when I prepare for the shift the universe will bring. The season is changing back to cold, the leaves turning colour, look so lovely to me.
That’s all that I can say for now, I’m operating off just a little sleep. I’ll continue in another post, have a productive day.